Today I heard the line from Laura Story's song titled Blessings, that went like this, "What if the trials of this lifetime are your mercies in disguise?" I've probably heard that song thousands of time on the radio as I drive the kids to and fro. But today as I went along and heard the words, tears just fell. I'm not sure how to describe the emotion behind those tears other than the moment that you see how SO many experiences of pain, loss, pressing in, disappointment, betrayal, crisis, hoping, praying, leaping again, and praising work together to bring you right where you are and you see- it is good.
As I say I would never want to relive my last year, I can honestly say I am grateful for it. With 13 surgeries, all but one out of state and two emergency, we were treading water. I lost count on how many times we drove to St. Louis and back. Every time rest felt like it might find us, trauma from the past surfaced as this or that child processed insecurities of being away from home or away from a parent. In order to be the best parent we knew to be, we stripped away the things that took away and some of those things involved blogging and social media. Writing is therapeutic for me but even writing during that season felt draining.
|Lucia LOVING the countryside|
Lucia had surgeries on her entire spine and hip. Cephas had his legs amputated and a deep wound on his tail bone that didn't want to heal that required surgery. Jubilee broke her leg and while casted the weight of the cast caused her leg to roll out no matter how hard we tried to keep it straight. So while she healed it left another challenge. And in the meantime, her scooting days had to be removed because the weight on her leg continued to hyper extend it. (The cause of the break.) We were finally able to find her a stander that would provide the support overall she needs since she has a lot less upper body strength and flexibility than Cephas does. She was able to use a demo for a few months with the hopes we could get things worked out with insurance to get her the stander but we weren't able to and so she isn't weight bearing now. That's fairly frustrating in that we have seen changes in her body in the short time it's been missing from her daily schedule. Please continue to pray this can get worked out shortly because it isn't just helpful, it's necessary for her to be weight bearing.
We had three on bed rest for about 10 weeks from December through January atleast. We were able to have some in home nurse visits to avoid constant trips to the wound care clinic. But come January we had to put off Jubilee's leg surgery so that all was healed up. We hope to have it done before the year is over but the good news is - we have not had ONE surgery in 2015! PRAISE GOD! Our family needed the mental and emotional break of hospital travel.
|Fellowship at our retreat|
|Excited about our new turtle sanctuary|
|BLESSED to have Alla come from Ukraine!|
|Tina's family vacation time|
We've taken the deep breaths and smiling again with lots of new lessons learned. For months it can just seem the same like a new day isn't dawning but because our God is FAITHFUL, he helped us to be faithful when we didn't even know how to be.
|Sisters in Christ who LIFT!|
I really want to thank many of you who reached out to us and prayed with us. There were days I came to my inbox and shed tears of gratitude for encouraging words and scripture prayed over our family. Truly, to be on the receiving end of those words when you are pressing in like never before, is immeasurable in value. We praise God for you.
I'm feeling the momentum of the new season to return to writing and sharing!
Super excited to share the latest praise in my next post!
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43:19