Living as Light Under Trial
At the same time, I want to honor my children and their stories. There are pieces of their stories they want me to share and pieces they don't. And there are aspects of our journey I don't share in order to protect and other aspects I feel prompted to share for understanding, education and ministering to hearts.
A couple of posts back I wrote about Jubilee's Breakthrough. I waited to share some of the challenges she had walked through because I didn't want it held against her. Our pasts become our testimonies of what God has done in our lives. And so, because Jubilee has had such incredible breakthrough, I wanted to share it as encouragement for those who had been in the trenches doing hard work for many months without seeing success. While we are in the middle of many BIG blessings and expansion in our home and hearts, we can, at the very same time be reaching down into a pit trying to pull another one up. Highs and lows come together many times for our family.
I was excited to share Jubilee's new found freedom and the joy that comes with it - until that blog post was used against her. Can i just say - if we ever hold someone's past against them and decide they should not be given a chance then we have shot ourselves in the foot. What chance should we be afforded?
Randy and I pray about the experiences we place our children in. We think we are a bit on the conservative side and cocoon with our children, being careful with what they participate in until we feel a prompting by the Holy Spirit and see the fruit that has come from our cocooning period. Only then do we consider placing them with others. We take into consideration who they will be with, even the room they will be in, the duration of time of the activity and the subject.
We have a little girl who has overcome a mountain, is beginning to feel as though she belongs. Joy is filling her heart. Peace rests with her. New steps are being taken. But fear came to meet us a couple days ago. When we signed her up to join Rainan in two, one hour classes (I am able to be there for), we were told the school was unable to care for her needs- because of the blog post I had shared.
God has been so good to minister to Randy and I to remember that this ministry goes far beyond what we do with our children but our battle extends to stand in faith and truth against the fear that still permeates within the body of Christ, unable to see the abounding good works that God is doing. For a moment, we trembled in the sting for our daughter. For a moment. But through forgiveness, God reminded us that this is still Grace Haven. In the safety of Jesus, no matter the injustice or unfairness of man, God reigns and will make overflowing joy abound for our daughter!! Her fate is not determined by man and so OUR joy overflows too!
Certainly we pray for healing to happen and Jesus to break His light into the areas of fear but whether or not that happens this time and incident for Jubilee or not, we believe He is using this opportunity to grow us. Jubilee has witnessed our hurt for her, she knows without a doubt that when we told her she couldn't join Rainan, that it wasn't us rejecting her. She laid her head on my shoulder then looked at me and said, "So they don't like me?" I told her, "Sweet girl, they don't know you! If they knew you, they would absolutely like you! You just keep praying and doing your very best and God will show you amazing things."
As I was meditating in the word, the Lord brought me to Isaiah 49:8-9.
I love it as I noticed that the background of the verse is probably the year of Jubilee!
This is what the Lord says:
In the time of my favor I will answer you, and in the day of salvation I will help you; I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people, to restore the land and to reassign its desolate inheritances, to say to the captives, 'Come out,' and to those in darkness, 'Be free!'
Our freedom wasn't stolen! Jubilee is being set up for greater things. God will make a way so that the living testimony of His grace in her life will be made known. We will not be shaken! We will not stop sharing the amazing work God has done. Glory be to God!
Please join us in prayer for families and for God's people that no offense of man can become a snare to the transforming work of the Cross. Jesus said, "It is finished." His love is made complete in us! (1John 4:12)