Later as I prayed that evening on my own this feeling only intensified, going into intercession automatically everytime I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. All weekend this continued and then this morning I picked up a book next to my bed called Tortured for Christ and flipped to page 58. Amazed I was to read the following excerpt, "Now I will show you how I love you. At once, I felt a flame in my heart which burned like the coronal steamers of the sun." This seemed to describe perfectly what I was experiencing. I was reminded of the disciples who met up with Jesus on the road to Emmaus and how they later spoke these words, "Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?" Luke 24:32 This is what it is with me now....the Lord has spoke to my heart so clearly and with burning I feel a greater measure of the intense love he has for his children. He would leave the 99 sheep to go after the one lost sheep.
I have had prayed over me on two occasions over the last year that I might increase in measure with the Father's compassion and mercy in my heart. Is this what I am experiencing now? I believe so. His love so strong it conquers all. His love is power. He is calling us now and he is looking closely down amongst his children and finding those who are poured out for the orphan and lost, those who will allow themselves to be used by him to go after that one of 99 sheep. He grieves for that one!
I'm reminded of the words Loren Cunningham once shared- "I pray for affliction to the comfortable, and comfort to the afflicted." My heart is "afflicted" with groanings of orphans, of those alone and afraid and weak. But I don't want comfort- I want opportunity to do something about it. I want to be used. I want to see chained iron gates busted open by the flood waters of holy love. Lord use your people now, place burning aches for justice in them and empower them in ways only you can. Breathe life where there is death and hope where there is hopelessness.