Saturday, December 26, 2009

The Father's Heart Compels Me to Adopt

Grace's 7th Birthday Party- October 25, 2009

Some of the most asked questions I hear are:

Why did you decide to adopt?
Why did you adopt overseas and not here in America where there are so many orphans already?
And why special needs?

The most obvious or expected answer might be that I will point you to James 1:27 (Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.) or tell you that God laid adoption on my heart as a small child. These would be true answers. But honestly, it is much deeper than that. We might have started our first adoption because of these reasons but now it is so much more.

I was once an orphan astray from my Heavenly Father but when He came to me, a became alive for the very first time. As I stand naked before Him, flaws and all, I am overwhelmed in joyful tears that I have a Daddy who is not critical, who sees potential and knows my heart. I am blessed to have a Daddy who speaks to me intimately and shows me those things that matter to Him. I have a Daddy who never leaves, holds me when I have fallen and wipes away my tears. I have a Daddy that defends me and enables me. When you meet the Father's love you are unable to contain it. The Father's heart is neverending, it overflows and it touches others. Adoption is perhaps the most beautiful expression of our Father's love for us. The more I grow as a daughter, the more I grow as a mother. The Father's love residing inside fills our hearts with more and more capacity to love His children and to be vessels for Him to express that love in real human tangible ways. It is not a feeling of obligation but, wow, I get to be used by you to fill the heart of another, to the LEAST. It is an honor you know. It is an honor to be entrusted with the defenseless, the weak, the rejected. I don't think there is any act the Lord sees upon this earth more beautiful because it is His essence. We see it expressed in the life of Jesus.

We adopted overseas because our hearts were burdened. We didn't decide to NOT adopt a child from America and at any moment the Lord should direct us in this way, we are eager to respond with a YES! The Lord also revealed to us that those children with special needs are the least likely to be adopted, least likely to receive medical care (let alone anything else)and most likely to die if left in an institution. We are witnesses of a real life miracle. We have in our home a child that had a very slim chance of life outside of a mental institution. A child who once was described as "low mental functioning, on the autism spectrum and fetal alcohol syndrome." Boy, weren't those scary words to hear. But that's just it. That was mans words, not God's. God says, this is my creation and she is good. There is work involved, there is time involved, there is a need for flexibility but then there is GRACE. God's grace is a haven for which I reside. And in that residence is the unfolding story, blossoming eruption over time of all that God has placed inside of our Grace Marina. This is truth. Not where she came from, not what she looked like, acted like, or was defined as but what she is becoming because of love. The more time passes I realize that I have special needs too. Needs only my Father in Heaven can meet.

It is the intimate journey that our Father has walked alongside revealing His plan for us that leads us in the way we will go. This is true for our entire life, not just adoption! Don't get caught up in what others are doing, get caught up with what God is doing with you. He loves you, He loves you, He loves you!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

All consuming love

I woke this morning to news of Derek's accident and then later that he passed. I can't even wrap my mind around this news. As I cried out to the Lord for their family, I was immersed in the feeling of ALL CONSUMING LOVE. How can I feel such sadness and love at the very same time? The Lord's ways are mysterious but true.

I wanted to share a post I sent to an adoption group this morning because it wrapped up our experience with the Loux family.

This summer when we visited them in KC, Randy and I were so amazed at the inner workings of their home with 10 children. While they have a humble home- all you came away with was ABUNDANCE. They are so rich in love that every square foot of thay house seems to sing. While they were busying around making lunch, Renee feeding children, Derek filling out paperwork for the kids, their support staff bustling would think it would be chaotic...small space, lots of people. It was just the opposite. There was enough time for everyone. In the midst of their 100 plus things to do they insisted on feeding us! :o) Somehow God allowed us to have uninterrupted fellowship amidst it all. This is the annointing of God. He multiplies! They walk by faith, not by sight! This is why I know Renee will be okay- because she is immersed in the ALL consuming love of Jesus...and she stays there.

If you haven't had the blessing of meeting the Loux family, I invite you to visit their blog site and to read about their ministry- The Josiah Fund and what they have been in the midst of doing. Consider sowing into their ministry now.

We love you Renee and family. HUGS You have seen miracles and you will see more.

Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord who has compassion on you. Isaiah 54:10

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Something New

Welcome to our family blog! This is a new venture for sure, keeping up with our happenings like this. I'm hoping I'll fit this in our daily routine somehow anyway.

Right now we are in the middle of adopting Dolly. This is our second adoption. She is nearing 2 and a half and we are hoping to have her home mid-to fall 2010. We are nearly half way through our fundraising which is a huge praise the Lord. Sweet Dolly (her cyber name) has spina bifida and hydrocephalus so we are busying ourselves in this time getting as much knowledge as possible so we can be ready to go with a medical and therapy plan when she arrives.

If adoption is on your heart but you've been scared about costs- let me tell you, I have watched so many families start with $0 in the adoption fund! The Lord's plan prevails so don't put limits by staring at that mountain ahead of you....He will make a way.